Back to blog after quite some time...lately alot of things have been running wild my mind and really really getting me crazy when there's no one to talk to and really will go mad one day.

These few days have been thinking about my work, my friends and alot more which i also dun know why i keep thinking and thinking...firstly, will be work WHY have i chosen this line when i'm totally not interested now and and i really finding trouble for myself really have been thinking from left to right, from up to down...haizzz...i realise one thing is that in this line there's no true friends but not totally dun have just that out of 50 there's only 1 or 2 person which can be trusted and talk truthfully...haizzz...friends??? is there any??? haizzzzz...and after joining into this line i feel that my distance with my friends around me is like getting further and further lesser and lesser topic to talk about...really getting more like stranger rather than close friends like the past.

I already regretted getting into this line due to the time and alot more...when i having off day friends are busy with schools and other stuff, when i working friends will be going out and playing etc....haizzzz...wat should i do??? This line see from the physical side is really good but actual fact people in this line are more like hypocrite rather than a trustworthy person cos i feel that i myself is more like a hypocrite now...everyone in this line can't be trust i myself can't trust myself either...can smile infront of u but behind u lots of things are happening which can make u die instantly without even knowing the reason and everyday at work is just like forcing myself to bring a smile to work and when i see my colleague i would just smile to them but is this smile real of fake i myself dun even know...haizzzz...all i wan is just simple just wanna find myself back and i can have more times with my family and friends...just that it's so hard to achieve...haizzzz.

Haizzz...my life sux after thinking so much this few days...seeing friends having time to do lots of things and seeing friends doing things that they wan to do and doing things that they enjoy real much but i can't...the feeling sux to the max and is like each time i see this i will just bluff myself is alright is alright...really dun like the feeling la...WHY WHY WHY...CAI ZHANYONG u really sux and ur life is so sux too...haizzzzz...CAI ZHANYONG u just sux la...at most u could do is just stare and see how they enjoy their life and u can't =(



Countdown to end of attachment:
7 Months
27 Weeks
191 Days
With lots of Off Days and MC i will be taking very soon (taken 2 MC so far)
2 Public Holiday (Hari Raya Haji & Christmas Day)








"True friendship is so important in life cause only true friendship won't be betray and destroy easily"